It has been almost fourteen years since an oh-so-familiar door was slammed shut in my face!
I had in and out privileges for almost 27 years through that door marked “Relationship,” two years companion, twenty-five years, wife.
Twenty-seven years, learning and knowing and growing, laughter and anger, abundance and need.
Then, abruptly and without grace, Death slammed the door shut in my face and I was denied access for the rest of my life
Unsure and and a little afraid, I stood alone in front of a new door, a door slightly ajar, a door marked “New Normal.”
Surrounded by questions for whom the answers would come painfully slow, I tentatively pushed open the door a little more, just to peer past it to see what I could see.
I saw nothing.
I quickly discovered I had to step inside before I would see anything at all.
It has been an unexpected journey, often watered with tears and plowed with frustration.
Mostly an uphill journey on a path marked “Single,” I’ve learned to endure the detours as well the unexpected pot holes and speed bumps.
Sometimes the days are sweltering, other days cool and refreshing.
These days the door marked “Relationship” is no longer in view, but the memories stayed with me and they often swathe me in the warmth of their comfort, especially when yesterday really is so far away.
“…could tell you my adventures–beginning from this morning,’ said Alice a little timidly: ‘but it’s no use going back to yesterday, because I was a different person then.”
― Lewis Carroll, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland