When I was younger
Introvert was not how
I described me
I was a loner
Slow to make friends
I could spend hours
Away from the maddening crowd
Though from my perspective
Two plus me equaled a crowd
Especially if the two were strangers
My mother
The consummate extrovert
Did not understand
Her eldest child
Why she was so withdrawn
Almost sullen
I suppose that’s how it seemed
Years later
On my own and married
My husband, in the early days
Would search for me
Find me alone in another room
Happily contemplating nothing
“What’s wrong?’
He would ask
“Nothing”
I would reply
He finally figured it out
My extreme extroverted husband
Who would speed up on the freeway
To catch up with a familiar face
In a passing car
Just to wave hello
I don’t know if he ever named “it”
But he came to realize
I wasn’t trying to get away from him
I was trying to get to me
What I discovered
After Mom and before Marriage
Was the me I was
Hidden in a word
Introvert
Not shy, Not reserved, not withdrawn, not sullen
Introvert
I am the energizer bunny
Who energizes from the inside out
I only need me to rev my engines
To take on any day
Not a crowd of people
Laughing and talking and slapping each other on the back
Just me
Silently I take in the world around me
Comfortable with the quietness
Of an empty space
I turn inward
And thrive
p.s. “Introverts are capable of acting like extroverts for the sake of work they consider important, people they love, or anything they value highly.” ~ Susan Cain
YEP!